So May was supposed to be effing epic. Don't get me wrong: it's been pretty amazing. My big, sweet man has come home (hooray!!!) but with any change comes the adaptation. I had forgotten those little things: stubbing my toes on size 16 men's shoes on a midnight jaunt to the restroom, the unexplained increase in yapping Blue emits just because her papa wants to sit down in the recliner, the TV volume turned past 75 (on a 10 point scale). So the adaptation is coming along well enough. Now if we can just keep the house cleaner...
My bestie came to town, too! It was a great visit. It's hard to cram ALL the things you want to do within the span of just a few days, and trying to get schedules to jive for all involved can be a challenge. I think we did okay. In hindsight, tho, I can't say we got in a lot of 1:1 time. I'm a little bummed about that, but I think we pretty much still talked and covered all of the topics we would have anyway - and that's the important part. Still... when you have a rather large group of friends that once all hung out together, there will always be change - it's inevitable. And it's not always bad, but sometimes you still gotta take a little time to mourn the loss of the closeness that might have once existed, and realize that just because that intense closeness isn't there anymore, it's not any one person's fault - nor does that mean you should never talk or see each other again. Just reasons, seasons and lifetimes, so to speak. Life changes affect the way we experience everything. It's crazy. And I am blessed to have had all of the friendships I've had with those women through all of the good and bad times. My life has forever been shaped, molded, and improved for days upon years because of them. And I'm glad for the friendships that continue on with the strength that they've always had. Again, still different, but with that connectedness that hasn't faded.
And the ONE thing that I still need to happen is to close on my house. I'm frustrated beyond measure at the ineptitude of Wells Fargo underwriters to get their proverbial shit together so we can close this deal. It should have closed last Friday, but that didn't happen. Now it's looking like it won't happen tomorrow, either. I love that house - I just need for someone else to love it now. I want to let go of it and all of the history it represents. I am tired of the responsibility, I'm finished ending up on the losing end of the mortgage, and I am simply OVER it. And there's nothing I can do about it except exercise a little effing patience. And encourage everyone to step away from big banks on principle! LOL... I can't wait to kiss my big bank goodbye when this deal is done!
The one great thing that has happened over this month is getting a student some much-needed support and resources that hopefully will change her life forever and for the better. That's the awesome stuff.
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